Baptizing the Gun

The beginning of the story Baptizing the Gun immediately jumps into a graphic and violent scene. A woman who had her earring stolen from her by ripping it off of her ear. The author immediately sets the mood for the story and lets the reader know that it will be violent and not the happiest of stories. Soon after the theft of the earring the priest states "see a boy struggling in a bonfire on the road. The earring thief has been caught, ringed with tires, doused in petrol, and set ablaze." I cannot even imagine the pain of being burned alive, but i've also heard that after five seconds your nerves are completely destroyed so you cannot feel anymore. It is scary to think that these things are really happening in certain places in the world, and for something as minor as stealing a woman's earring although it was ripped off of her ear would sentence you to death, and you get burned alive in the street while everyone watches. I don't see why someone would still risk stealing a measly earring when there life would be on the line if caught.

When the priest comes in contact with the man in the pinstripe suit, i was curious to find out who exactly he was. He is helping the priest out but is it all in a plan to steal his car from him or was he merely just being friendly. The priest is cautious and pretty nervous by his approach, which in Nigeria i would be as well. He has a Rolex, a nice suit, and sunglasses on which seems like a thug to me. While they begin to drive along i was still very curious to find out what exactly he is doing. The priest notices a bulge in the man's pocket and guesses it to be a gun. I could see how the priest could think of this bulge as a gun just because of the way that the Lagosian is acting. When the arrive at the "Operation Sweep" the Lagosian begins to act weird and nervous. I still do not fully understand why the Lagosian gets so anxious at this part. You find out at the end of the story that "his gun" is really just a "handkerchief the size of a hand towel" but the Lagosian exclaims as they get nearer to the road block "i'll kill you if you stop this car, damn it!" I wonder if he gets angry and threatening at this part not because he is a criminal, but just because he knows how corrupt the police are and doesn't want to come in contact with him if possible. You learn that the soldiers really are corrupt and end up making the priest pay them money to pass.

When they arrive at the town and are in the traffic jam the priest attempts to make his escape. He gets trapped by the O.P.C. and has to pay them more money. The Lagosian actually was the one who talked to them to see if they could find the priest for him. Something did not seem right at this part and i kept thinking that something really bad was going to happen to the priest and that the Lagosian was going to kill him or something of that nature. After having the car pushed to the mechanic and the Lagosian and the mechanic get in a little argument once again I thought that here was were the Lagosian was finally going to show his true color and do something criminal like we all think he is planning on doing. Shortly after, the priest finds out that the "heat" the lagosian was packing was really just the handkerchief and that he really is just a kind hearted man. He is wearing the suit and the rolex because he is a businessman and "[has] a company that imports iron rod." I really liked the end to this story. It shows that even in a dismal and genocidal environment there still are people that are good and that just because they live in that place does not mean that they agree with what is going on in it. It was amazing how quickly my view of the Lagosian changed once i found out that that gun was actually just a large handkerchief and immediately felt the goodness within him, as did the priest. Also if i lived there, i probably wouldn't buy anything that was really nice. Like the "Pirellis" the tires that the priest has, the whole time he is sort of worrying about them being stolen. I'd rather have a bunch of crappy stuff so i wouldn't have to worry as much about them being stolen.

Better Half, Maia

Both of these stories are pretty similar, foreigners dealing with relationship problems. Better Half was a depressing read. Anya is from Dolsk but had moved to the United States away from her mother and father. She fell in love with a boy named Ryan but this love quickly fell through. All there relationship is now is fighting and Anya knew that she would have to end this. Ryan is full of insults and abuse such as: "Now get the hell out of my car""your fat ass isn't getting a free ride no more." (114) The final straw for Anya however was when he hit her later that evening. She met with Erin and now has a restraining order against him. However, even though Ryan was abusive and she knew she was better off without him she still missed him. Maybe she missed the Ryan she knew when they first met, when there was nothing to yell at each other about. After seeing each other at a bar they quickly start getting together again. Everything is alright but Anya knew things just were not going to work out between them. Things quickly get sour, and Anya could see it coming, after that first argument on their second try she gave it up and knew she would have to stop herself from thinking about him, "She'd have to overcome the urge to look fro him as she had that time" (129). Maia in Yonkers is also a sad story to read. It deals with relationships again except this one is between a son and his mother. This son is young and spoiled getting most of what he wants and complaining when he does not get it. When in New York City, he hoped that the elevator in the Empire State Building would take them all the way to the tip of the spire, "When it let them out at the observation deck, on the eighty-sixth floor, he turned disappointed and moody and wandered away from her." (41) I'm the youngest in my family, i have three older sisters but my mom never put up with things like that if i acted like Gogi. While reading the story i found myself thinking of how my mom would react if i did some of the things Gogi did. The evil stare she would have when you know your about to get an ass whooping. Gogi eventually begins to show a little more respect and you see that the relationship between him and his mother is getting better, relationships have two sides and you see Gogi begin to do his part.

Love and Honor and Pity and Pride and Compassion and Sacrifice

The beginning of the story introduces you to the son and the father. They are both of Vietnamese decent however you learn that the father is visiting from Sidney, Australia and the current setting is in Iowa, where the son now goes to school. The son sounds like the average college or graduate student. A very messy apartment. Clothes and papers everywhere, a mountain of dishes in the sink, an ashtray full of cigarette butts, liquor handles stashed away. Right off the bat i knew that i could relate in some ways to this character. The son begins to use the term Ba when talking to his father such as: "You'll sleep in my room, Ba" I figured that this was the Vietnamese way of saying father or dad, but i looked it up online just in case and it is. While at it I also looked up the definition for the words rueful, as in his dad gave him a rueful smile and exorbitant. Rueful basically means sympathetic, and exorbitant is exceeding all bounds, so he gives the bartender generous tips. I was kinda confused when the son was recollecting on his time with his girlfriend the day before, he talks about how beautiful she was but then states "staring at her face made me tired." i'm not sure if this meant that looking at her beauty made him tired, or if it was foreshadowing some trouble between the two of them, if he is growing tired of her. While him and his friends are drinking i got a good laugh when his friend was telling him how easy it is for him to write, just writing about Vietnamese subjects then says "But instead, you choose to write about lesbian vampires and Colombian assassins, and Hiroshima orphans--and New York painters with hemorrhoids" I could see him actually writing about the Colombian assassins and Hiroshima orphans, but lesbian vampires and painters with hemorrhoids? is that for real or just part of his drunk humor? well i guess the vampire one might be able to work. As you continue reading on, Nam explains the way his father was toward him when he was young. Very strict and disciplinary he tells that when he found out that a certain food made him vomit his father "forced me to eat it in front of guests" and saying that hunger finds no fault with food. Thats a little too intense for me, i think if i were raised like that i would leave the house a soon as possible. When the story continues it gets to a point where the father is telling war stories to friends while drinking. You learn that he has seen a lot of terrible things in his lifetime, such as witnessing one of his grandfathers get his throat slit while his grandmother got shot and a daughter raped. this sort of justifies why he was so hard on his son growing up. I had a feeling while this story was going on that it would be material that Nam would soon write about. The story is keeping me interested, but as i read along, i keep finding myself going back and forth wondering during certain section whether he is talking about something in the past or in the present tense, it seems a lot of it is in the past but i guess i just miss a lot of the transition periods. Nam and his father have a sit down talk and his father tells of his life and the things that he had seen. The next morning after Nam had finished his paper which was due that day, he awoke to find that his dad had gone for a walk and went to read his new paper. After finding his dad down by the river with the man by the barrel he sees that he is empty handed. So his dad threw the paper into the barrel? After seeing this Nam states that he wishes he had known then what he knew later then he would have said the things he did. So this must mean that Nam was angry and said some bad things toward his dad such as i wish you never would have come, and what he did was unforgivable. I think everyone who realizes that their paper had been thrown in the fire would have been very angry though. But following this i think Nam realizes what this paper did to his father. His father had spent his whole life trying to forget these terrible memories and having told those stories throughout the night and reading the paper on himself had reopened those wounds that he had spent so long trying to sew up. As Nam looks at the river getting colder behind his dad he realizes something. The last sentence of the story is "And it occurred to me then how it took hours, sometimes days for the surface of a river to freeze over--to hold in its skin the perfect and crystalline world--and how that world could be shattered by a small stone dropped like a single syllable. I think this is a metaphor for something along the lines of, his father had spent so long to sew up those wounds that had haunted him forever and finally brought him piece of mind and something so simple such as small stone (paper or words) could shatter all of that. So in general the story was good, but i still am sort of confused at the end it, what is exactly happened and what all of the things Nam was saying at the end really meant.

The Bridegroom

The Bridegroom was an interesting short story. I feel bad for people who live in china. The way things are just seem like not a good life. When you live in china you are always being judged, you have to fall in to conformaty and are looked down upon if you want to be yourself. I'm not one to down with there little homosexual meetings, but i still think it should be a persons right to decide what they want to do and who they want to be. I think this story must have taken place a good many years ago since they try and cure Baowen of his "disease." Also that it was a good thing that he was "a middle school graduate---and he didn't smoke or drink or gamble." In this day and age only completing middle school is worthless, but that just might be how it is in our society. It was also weird when Old Cheng said that he didn't smoke or drink or gamble because just previously he mentioned what Baowen brought as gifts which were "two trussed-up capons, four cartons of Ginseng cigarettes, two bottles of Five Grains' Sap, and on tall tin of oolong tea." When Old Cheng got the call from the police about him being incarcerated, the last thing that I was kind of expecting was because he was homosexual. If people went to jail for being homosexual here, the prisons would be even worse then they are today. Because of overcrowding and that other thing that is known to happen in prisons which i don't need to mention. Up to five years for being homo, that would suck. When uncle cheng went to see him after the interrogations he noticed that he had been beat "his face was bloated, covered with bruises. A broad welt left by a baton, about four inches long, slanted across his forehead." didnt think it could get much worse than going to prison for being who you are, but theyll also beat you. China doesn't seem like a place that i'd want to live at, i don't like there system of doing things, also that i've heard that you can't have more than one child, i don't think i would be able to give some of my kids away to government, if i had any. I feel bad for Beina, all she wanted was a husband and she got one of the best ones, but he was gay. And she hasn't had any real love yet, its like their just friends that are married and don't share any compassion. And now at the end of the story she wants to stay with him, even though he is going to prison for a while for continuing his acts. I thought it was kind of funny also when Old Cheng said "I didn't touch the milk, unsure whether homosexuality was communicable." Its sad that in their society the Uncle and the daughter can lose there jobs just for having relations with Baowen. I guess its true in some cases in our American society that people can lose their jobs for some instances like that but still. It sad that Old Cheng decides not to relate with Beina anymore unless she decides to divorce Baowen just for job security and for social standards. Overall i think it was a somewhat entertaining story.

The Orbiting

Im not sure why this story is called the orbiting. Maybe because it circumferences many different cultures within its plot. I do like how it involves a variety of cultures, it kept me reading and interested. Bharati Mukherjee does a good job at making the american-italian family feel authentic. I was surprised at how many different cultures were involved with and mentioned in the plot. Rindy's family hails from Northern Italy and Sicily i believe, her sister Cindi has a husband named Brent who comes from an Amish family, Rindy has a friend from El Salvador named Jorge, a "pakistani, who runs a spice store in SoHo," and of course Ro who comes from Kabul which i guess is in Afghanistan? There a brief mention of swedish furniture as well, "Swedish knockdown dresser." I really like the realism that Mukherjee brings in the description of the interactions between Ro and Rindy's father, the awkwardness of Ro's headshakes of agreement and the skeptism that her father has of him. "Ro nods. Even his headshake is foreign" and the father somewhat unapproving with "dad joins mom on the sofa bed, shaking his head." I liked the part when Ro was talking to her on the phone and talked about how he needed to help his cousin Abdul, itd be scary to have that feeling that you have to sort of stay under the radar in order to not get deported....which in Abdul's case, could mean death. "Ro's afraid Abdul will be deported back to Afghanistan. If that happens, he'll be tortured." It was funny when Rindy said "When i think of Abdul, I think of a giant black man with goggles on, running down a court." it brought the funny image in my head of Kareem Abdul Jabbar's lankyness with his bug-eyed goggles on slammin over some fool. When they begin the dinner and Rindy has Ro cut the bird, she realizes that she loves that man. She basically explains, he has a worn and torn body which some may find disgusting, but it turns her on, basically. It shows that he is a true man, that those scares were from a hard life, from torture, not little scars from a game or a mistake from roughhousing like that of her father and Brent. That he wasn't proud of them, he didn't use them as something to build up his manlyness. They are things that he finds embarrassing and is not proud of. When she talks about her father and Brent stating: "They have their little scars, things they're proud of, football injuries and bowling elbows they brag about." Also making the reference "Ro is Clint Eastwood, a scarred hero and survivor. Dad and Brent are children." When her mom asks in the last line of the story: "Why are you grinning like that, Renata?" you can get the picture in your head of her just gazing at him in awe and knowing that she loves him and is proud to be with him.

A Wife's Story

I was surprised seeing the David Mamet reference right at the beginning of the story. I thought the whole story was going to be about just racism after reading the quote "Thursdays for Chinese, Wednesdays for Hispanics, today for Indian." "Let's get her today. See if she cries. See if she walks out." I didn't end being really about racism in America at all. It basically seemed like an "american dream" kind of story. Panna has come to New York to try and make something of herself and move up in the world. When her husband comes to visit from India he gets really into the typical tourist sort of deal. They seem to have an okay marriage, but something about the way they act together just seems weird. The probable reason is because they were matched up by their parents. "My parents, with the help of a marriage broker, who was my mother's cousin, picked out the groom. All i had to do was get to know his taste in food." I would hate it if this were in my religion or culture. I think Panna is going to school in the United States because she is trying to get out of that culture. It seems like her life in Indian sounds pretty nice for her though, "No parents, no servants, to keep us modest." i mean, i think it would be pretty awesome to have servants. but I think that for Panna, she would rather live in a dumpy apartment and be able to do what she wants and marry who she wants, then to live in a palace and live her whole life with someone whom she does not really love. I would be the same way. It is obvious that her husband has strong feelings for her "Come back, now. I have tickets. We have all the things we will ever need. I can't live without you." She seems to get somewhat embarrassed by him at some points, like not wanting to be caught by her friends going on those tours. Overall, after the two years of her studies to get her degree, i don't believe that she will return back to India. She has friends in the U.S., she seems to like the culture, and there are men here that are attracted to her. Also, i liked the reference to Indiana Jones with the "Maybe I'll write Steven Spielberg too; tell him that Indians don't eat monkey brains." i got a good laugh out of that.

Stone Reader 1st. Half

I think its pretty crazy that Mark is having so much trouble finding let alone getting in contact with Dow Mossman, the writer of The Stones Of Summer. Mark glorifies this book like no other, and its hard to believe that he can barely even find people who have heard of it let alone read it. But these things happen, there is a ridiculous amount of music that people have never heard of that are the best songs. I first wondered if the writer was possibly dead, but I think if he had died it would be a lot easier to find where he is through things such as obituaries and reports. It is really neat that someone can get into reading as much as Mark does, but i know that i could never get that much into it. It must be a good story because whoever actually does read it seems to sort of obsess with it. In the documentary they talk of a lady on an airplane who carries it around with her wherever she goes just so in case that she meets someone whose has read. It only being almost fourty years old, its hard to believe that it is barely known at all, but im sure that this documentary will advertise it a lot and get it out to the public more.

Maybe it is just one of those books that doesn't really get much attention until very long after it is written. I do recognize the book Catch 22, i never read it but i remember one of my sisters having to read for school. When he began talking about this in the documentary i kind of got lost in why he was talking about it. I think this was when it was showing the footage of the fair, maybe i just got caught up in looking at the rides and lost attention to what exactly he was talking about.

Lolita 280-309

In general terms, i think Lolita ended in a way that I sort of expected. I wasn't really expecting that Humbert would go back to Quilty's mansion and kill him though. As i was reading that section, it took me a little while to determine if it was actually happening or not. Like if it was a dream or something like that because Quilty sort of acted like he wasn't even there when he came out of his bedroom. "He either did not notice me, or else dismissed me as some familiar and innocuous hallucination" (294) Basically, that whole kind of murder scene was fishy to me. Clare Quilty must have either been out of it from a hang-over, or drugs, or just didn't really care about dying. Maybe he actually did feel guilt for the things he had done and did not want to live, but i'm not sure about that one. Throughout this whole scene he is actually fine and not scared that there is a gun pointed right at him. As he read his "sentence to death" in the poetic form he begins to compliment on Humberts poetry, "That's good you know. That's damned good." (299).
As this goes on you can tell that Humbert is having a hard time finally committing the murder, dropping the gun, talking to Quilty, shooting him many times to finally kill him. You can tell there is also some fear in Humbert because he is afraid to go and feel Quilty to make sure he's dead. When he gets back to the first floor all of Quilty's friends are there and ready to go to the game. Humbert tells them that he just killed them and they seem pleased saying things like "Good for you" and "Somebody ought to have done it a long time ago" (305). Are these friends actually there or is Humbert just having a hallucination, like something in The Shining? That is what i could not pinpoint, i mean he is insane and he did just kill somebody, and these "friends" are taking his side on it. But anyhow, i guess Humbert, Quilty, and Lolita are dead now since the book has been published.

Lolita 179-236

I find the situation between Humbert and Dolores to be very interesting. It is very weird. Lolita is a very interesting teen, or nymphet as Humbert Humbert would call her. She lost her virginity at a early age and is experienced i guess you could call it for a girl her age. She goes very back and forth when it comes to Humbert. Sometimes i feel bad for her, and at other times i don't because i believe she plays him on just as much as he trys to get with her. I feel bad that she is basically stuck with Humbert and is kind of like his little in house hooker, he buys her things and gives her money to perform the acts that she does. Humbert got a good scare when he had to go in to the meeting with Mrs. Pratt thinking that his secret had been found out. Turns out that Lo has not been doing well in school and is not maturing sexually. It was kind of ironic to me when Pratt began talking to Humbert about him needing to allow Lo to take part in "The Hunted Enchanters" play not only because it closely resemble the name of the hotel that they stayed at when touring throughout America but also for the line that she says following. "You must allow her to take part in The Hunted Enchanters. She was such a perfect little nymph in the try-out," (196) It's funny because she is the perfect nymphet to him, just not in a play...its in real life. He is convinced to let her perform in the play, and to allow her to start being around more boys. And I couldn't believe that only minutes after the scare he had of being caught he met Lolita while she was still at school and "unbuttoned [his] overcoat and for sixty-five cents plus the permission to participate in the school play, had Dolly put her inky, chalky, red-knuckled hand under the desk." (198)..... so got a hand job at her school? he's got problems. They say that there is a fine line between being a genius and being insane, and i think Humbert is a perfect example. He prides himself on his intellect and likes to think of himself as better than most people. At the beginning of my read he talks about his games of chess with his one friend in Beardsley, Gaston Godin. Gaston seems to help him a lot and is a nice person, but most of what Humbert has to say is about him is "There he was, devoid of any talent whatsoever, a mediocre teacher, a worthless scholar, a glum repulsive fat old invert, highly contemptuous of the American way of life" (183) Humbert really thinks highly of himself to think of others in that way. I was also sort of confused at the part when he questions Lo's friend Mona. She moves closer and closer to him, close enough to where he can smell the lotion on her skin and asks "was my Lo playing the pimp?"(192) So does Mona have the hots for him? does Lo talk to Mona about what her and Humbert do?

Lolita pp. 3-62

Wow, what can i say about this novel? Very interesting to me that someone actually published something with this sort of subject matter. It is kind of freaky the way that this novel is written, it is very descriptive and scary in that way. I guess it is well written but its hard to take it all in just because of what the author is addressing. I think that the author, Vladimir Nabokov, has the same feelings that Humbert Humbert has in the novel. I feel like this is true just because of the things that the author writes, the descriptiveness of the feelings and such. like its his real feelings just hidden behind the character.
The beginning of the novel starts out with him talking about his first "girl-child" love...who is Annabel. As well as calling himself a murderer, "You can always count on a murderer for a fancy prose style" i wonder what is meant by this, did he actually murder someone before or is this foreshadowing something to come. He also comes close to murdering someone when the Valeria ordeal occurs. Her leaving him for someone else with whom she loves. When they are at their place of residence he considers slapping her and even performing murder. "Humbert the Terrible deliberated with Humbert the Small whether Humbert Humbert should kill her or her lover, or both, or neither." This talking to yourself in such a manner is grounds for insanity, i mean everyone talks to themselves every now and then questioning actions and consequences, but when it comes to murder, and "toying with the idea of enjoying his little sister." then you got yourself a problem. I fear for what is to happen in this novel, will he actually acquire what he is after? It seems that Lolita almost has the same feelings for him, although she is only twelve years old and probably lacking sexual knowledge she seems to be pretty aggressive i guess you could say. "She twisted herself free, recoiled, and lay back in the right-hand corner of the davenport. Then, with perfect simplicity, the impudent child extended her legs across my lap." it seems like Lo is just being a child her and just playing around, but i also get the feeling as I read that she almost knows whats going on and is going along with it. What is weird about this situation is that Humbert knows that what he is doing is wrong, but he still goes through with it, like it is an addiction. Here he states "By this time I was in a state of excitement bordering on insanity; but I also had the cunning of the insane." he knows that its kind of insane the goals that he has with this kid, but he's using that insanity to get what he wants. And later after their first "encounter" he says that he "i felt proud of myself. I had stolen the honey of a spasm without impairing the morals of a minor." This i guess might be something to be happy about, he got what he wanted and didn't really corrupt Lo, but he also states that he has no intention of stopping what he is doing. After their "encounter" they go to lunch with Mrs. Haze whom i think wants something with Humbert. She never really talks well about Lo when its just Humbert and older Haze, it almost seems like her and her daughter are fighting for the man, its just Humbert is really weird and goes for a twelve year old.

Howl

Howl was probably the craziest poem that i have read in a long time. I really could not pinpoint what all this meant. The first section could possibly be things in the world that have made smart people become corrupt. The very first statement says "I've seen the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness" and the rest continues with statements about people who do and think things that may show a corrupt world.
"Moloch! Solitude! Filth! Ugliness!" moloch is continued throughout this next section of the poem. I looked up online on what it could possibly mean. What i found was that it is a hebrew term for someone like a king, or a term for a kind of sacrifice. Since it is constantly repeated throughout this section, it may be expressing the different kinds of sacrifices in his world.
When the part about Carl Solomon comes up i begin to wonder of the sexuality of Allen Ginsberg. He keeps stating that he is in Rockland with Solomon. Rockland may be a place where they met or a favorite place near San Francisco. The main part that makes me think that Carl Solomon may be his lover is the section that says: "I'm with you in Rockland, where we hug and kiss the United States under our bedsheets" however, this could just be talking about trying to help the country, but it still "coughs all night and won't let us sleep." I think the main message in this poem could be about how corrupt the world and this country is and can be. I didn't look up who Carl Solomon but he seems like he could be important, maybe a bad model of the world.

Engl 215, Sonny's Blues

Sonny's Blues was a very good story. One could believe that it is a nonfiction piece. It is fiction, but it depicts very real and truthfully subjects in life. Racism became very prevelent in the story once Sonny's brother thinks back on a conversation with his mom after his father passed away. The two boys never knew even knew that they once had an uncle, he got killed a long time ago from a "car full of white men." I hadn't exactly depicted the race of Sonny and his brother until this time, it also helped to have a depiction of the year.

A part that was very interesting to me was when the brother was departing on the subway and after their talk Sonny's friend asked if he could borrow a dollar. After reaching in his wallet to give him a dollar he realized that he only had a five dollar bill. He gave the five to Sonny's friend "he didn't look at it-- he didn't want to look at it. A terrible closed look came over his face, as though he was keeping the number on the bill a secret from him and me. Thanks, he said, and was now dying to see me go." I think this part just show the strength of addiction. I think in part when sonny's friend saw that it was a five, he was excited and at the same time sad because he knew that he would just buy even more heroin with it. And as soon as he got it he was ready for Sonny's brother to go because he wanted to go get his fix.

The ending of the story was very powerful. Sonny really expressed his feelings through the music. It was what got him through his life. He had friends around him to support, especially Creole. Being the reader, even though you cannot physically hear the music that Sonny is playing, it seems to be playing in your head while reading this part. It's like you can just hear the emotions coming from Sonny. When Sonny's brother ordered drinks to all the musicians on the stage, I think it finally showed the connection between the two brothers that had been waiting for their whole lives. "he sipped from it and looked toward me, and nodded."

Engl 215, The Glass Menagerie, 66-97

Overall, i think it was a decent play. Most everything up until the seventh scene is all basically giving the background to each cast member's personality, character, and problems. As well as preparing for the gentleman caller, who is Jim O'Connor. The reader already knows that the daughter Laura had a big crush on Jim throughout high school, however when Jim enters the Wingfield's apartment in the 6th scene he does not seem to remember her.

When Amanda and Tom are in the kitchen doing the dishes, i was not expecting for Jim and Laura to connect so quickly. Even though Laura is extremely shy, after a few words were exchanged she opened up pretty quickly. As Jim began talking a lot i sort of started to get irritated with him. He said a lot of egotistical things i though such as "you remember that wonderful write-up i had in The Torch?" i dont know, things that he said such as that irritated me. He seemed to talk to Laura a lot about fixing her personality such as "You know what i judge to be the trouble with you? Inferiority Complex!" which he explains to be a name for people who low-rate themselves. If many people were talked to like this they could get angry, but all Jim is trying to do is help her and i agree with what he is doing. It is obvious through the play that she seriously lacks confidence. After what seems to only be a few minutes, Jim basically opens up to her saying that he has strong feelings for her, and how she is different than most people and that is what he loves about her. He asks her if anyone has ever called her pretty and says " Well, you are! In a very different way from anyone else. And all the nicer because of the difference, too." At first you could take this the wrong way, like, im a different kind of pretty? but i think jim does a good job at making it clear that its a good difference, he makes this point several times.

I thought something serious was going to become of this evening between them too, but shortly after he plants a kiss, he basically tells her that nothing will happen from this because he admits to having a fiance. I felt bad when i read this, not only for just Laura but for Amanda as well as Tom. Amanda wanted something good to happen for Laura and Tom did as well, so that he can move on with his life. Amanda gets angry as soon as Jim leaves after hearing about his fiance, Laura seems to not show much emotion, she seems to just be kind of there. I felt bad for Tom because he was catching heat for not letting them know that Jim was already taken, when Tom had no idea. It seems kind of crazy that Laura got Jim to like her even though he didn't even go to the dinner to be a gentleman caller, he was unaware of a sister being there but the "secret mission" was still almost accomplished. I should have read the couple pages in the front of the book before starting the play, because throughout the reading i was going through different disabilities that Laura could have. I don't remember a part when they actually stated what it was exactly, so i was just guessing that it was polio or something of that nature. After finished I looked at the front on the page about the characters and under Laura it says "A childhood illness has left her crippled, one leg slightly shorter than the other, and held in a brace." At the end when Tom says that he left St. Louis, i didn't really think it was that selfish. Yes he left his sister and his mother to deal with the things on their own, but he still had a life to live but was held back by them. He followed in his father's footsteps like he said.

In Dreams Begin Responsibilities

I think this short story was about the narrators problems with his parents. I think that it is obvious that the relationship between his mother and his father was uneasy. I didn't really realize this until the end of the story, when i was reading through it i didn't take note that at the beginning of the story he says: I feel as if i were in a moving picture theater" which was him basically saying i wasn't really in a movie theater but it felt like it. So as i went on reading i thought that he was actually in a movie theater watching a movie of his parents beginnings. This was sort of boggling my mind and i knew something was weird how he kept referring to the actor and actress as his parents. At the end of the story he wakes up from his sleep, which tells the reader that it was a dream.

When the narrator keeps yelling at the "screen" in his dream, you know that there is something that isn't right, however everything in the "movie" seems to be going fine. I think that the photograph part was foreshadowing their marriage. It starts out great, during the beginning of the shots, but then quickly gets bad. The photographer keeps dragging on the photo shoot, wanting a better picture each time. This is like how their marriage will be, its great in the beginning, everyone is happy and in love, but very quickly gets sour and bad. Same goes for the fortune-teller part. I think that shows the anger that will quickly appear between them. The mother wants to go in and get her fortune and the father doesn't want to be in there, so they begin to fight. All the while the son who is "watching the movie in the theater" is yelling at it, telling them not to get married it will only get bad, basically.

I think it was well written and has a good topic. When the father proposed to the mother, the son was going crazy yelling trying to get them to not go through with it, that it will only lead to bad things. Such as scandals, hatred, and two kids one of which is him, who have crazy personalities or characters.

Frost Poems ENGL 215

I enjoyed Robert Frost's poem Birches. He uses a whole lot of detail when describing certain objects such as the tree. He describes what the tree looks like in so many different ways that you can get a pretty vivid picture in your mind. He basically describes the tree with the birches as it changes throughout the year and through all of the seasons. When he begins to talk about the leaves falling off onto the ground as if a girl on her hands and knees throws her hair before her to let it dry in the sun, i get a little confused. He uses such a great amount of detail i begin to lose focus on what he's really trying to get at. After all this detail he begins to go back to the boy who swings on the birches. The was the part of the poem that i began to understand mostly. He begins to talk about how he wishes he were young again and could go swing on birches like the boy can. Being his age there is not much more for him to look forward to, life is like a "pathless wood" with "cobwebs," when your still young life is more exciting and fun. Getting away from that life and trying it over again.
Mending wall was very interesting to me. Walls can do both good and bad for situations. If you build a wall it is like your blocking yourself from relationships. It divides two things, like him and his neighbor. His neighbor is all pine trees and on Frost's side of the wall is an apple orchard, with the wall in place, the apples from frost will never get to his neighbors side. Like a blocked friendship. All his neighbor says about the wall is that "Good fences make good neighbors" this reminds me of the television show Home Improvement, there was a large fence or wall dividing Tim's yard and his neighbors, yet his neighbor and him were great friends. I guess what the neighbor in frost's poem is saying that walls can enable better friendships? a place to meet and discuss maybe? or having the wall there creates a perfect amount of seeing someone but not too much to where you begin to dislike the individual. This is a very interesting poem to me, i feel like i don't understand it at all, but at the same time I do it is just hard to express the meaning of it.

Poems ENGL 215

I enjoyed Carver's Photograph of My Father in His Twenty Second year. I believe what he is expressing is that his father was never really a great father to him. He was an alcoholic and was never there to show him manly things such as fishing. He loves him, but he can't say that hes thankful for who his father was and what his father made Carver to become. Ezra Pound's poem was a lot shorter than expected. Maybe it's about how the atmosphere in a metro station is kind of dull and sad.

Letter of Introduction

I did a decent amount of reading throughout my high school career. I read works such as The Odyssey, Romeo & Juliet, The Crucible, October Sky, Beowulf, and others. I read many poems as well but cannot choose any certain ones. I enjoyed most of them , however i was kind of dissappointed in Beowulf, it wasn't as good as i had hoped. The Odyssey was another epic poem that i enjoyed a good bit.

In the four years that i was in high school i had two awesome english teachers and two terrible english teachers. The two that i disliked were very strict and lacked personality. A particular one was Ms. Casey and she used to always tell us that she didn't ever watch television, however it was hard to believe because she loved denzel washington and had a movie poster for a Knights Tale on her wall. I wrote many research papers for novels and short stories as well as argumentative essays. I have never really written anything that i didn't have to write for school. maybe a few rhymes here and there while hanging out with friends, but other than that no.

I have a facebook and get on it once or twice a day, sometimes more depending on if i have nothing to do. I regularly talk to friends through the IM program on facebook. I see this writing more as non-fiction because it is describing things i've done and what i do.